Giving Back

my second meeting.
when i walked into that room..
their eyes lit up..
and then i smiled..
and the whole room smiled...
we did our discussions and stuff..
everybody who got the chance to speak today..
congratulated me on me on my second day..
and thanked me for my smile..
i made their days just by showing up
they made mine by being there
... i'm already giving back and i don't even realize it

i'm the youngest person in my group, so far..
yesterday a young man showed up
and he looked so lost..
he came again today!
we didn't think he would...
just the scared little puppy look he gave off..
but he said to me..
after he heard me talk in there yesterday..
that he decided he was gonna come back..
that made me happy...

a man took me aside today..
and he gave me a rose
he says it's almost as pretty as me,
but not nearly as pretty as my smile
these people are gonna kill me with kindness

he's an old man..
and i think i make his day just by being a part of it..
i think i'll adopt him..

Proud of you also Paige, and I doooo like the decor on this site.. [img]graemlins/thumbs_up.gif[/img]

i'm gonna start a journal for my sobriety..
i'm going with an idea a friend gave me..
for every meeting i go to..
is another page...
for every month is a chapter..
a complete book is a year..
hopefully i'll have a series [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img]

wild..
thank you!
i do so like this decor, also..
thanks for stoppin by!

i don't have much action in here anymore..
but it's my slice..
for my venting..

my bit of therapy which i don't mind sharing with the world~

feel free to stop in any time..
i like nonsense ... nods

"alcoholics bleed thru their eyes"
i've done a lot of bleeding....
i think i've cried more in the past 5 days than i have in the past 2 years..
i know i've said that before..
but really!
it only took like 10 seconds into a conversation
about god
to make me cry today
the minute i saw my dad it was like..
instant tears..

i had no idea it was going to be this emotional..
i was expecting the jitters..
and the mood swings..
more anger, tho..
not sorrow..
i can't even help it..
i just cry

but i guess...
someone said..
we live life thru our feelings..
and you haven't truly lived until you've lived emotions..
so maybe they're just catching up with me now...?

Sometimes we run so fast thru life that we lose the feelings somewhere behind us..but man when they catch up...they really rake us over the coals..they say take the time to stop and smell the roses..but hell..i rarely see roses to stop and look at anymore...and i beleive when that happens..you should look for something other than roses maybe...thats what im doing..looking.. [img]smile.gif[/img]

paiges [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img] ..*proud of you*

smell the roses...
as i walk into my apartment complex eery day
there's these big purple bushes...
i can't get too close
because they're so full of pollen..
but they smell soOoOOoOooo sweet....
that i have to stop every time
just so i can smell it..

it's sad when we lose touch..
with friends..
with family..
ourselves..
nature..

you don't realize how much you take for granted
until you no longer have it
i'm proud of me, too...
6 days no drinks..
4 days no drugs..

ok ok i smoked today..
but just one cigarette!
my first in 5 days..
and i love every fucking second of it....